It's time I start to blog again...

It has now been a year since Calla came into our lives..shes 1 year old! With that comes some serious sadness that my baby is growing up..as well as the reminder that her father has not had one thing to do with her.

Not to mention I have been fervently looking for a new home/apartment for my kids and myself. Bree and I both have been diagnosed with asthma...and we all are becoming more and more ill from this hell hole of a place we call home. The prejudices of being a single mother of 4 children really shows now that I have had to look for a new place...most people feel its THEIR opinion that their home isn't "big enough" for us to reside in...then there is the comment that they don't think I can "afford" it....and then theres those silent ones who let ya apply and never contact you again...they just dont have the balls to tell you no. I also...trully believe my married last name has been a big factor...its a Hispanic last name...so yea...sorta shows the ignorance of people .

I just broke down bawling tonight because this last rental owner didn't call me back..I called again and I got every excuse in the book..I even PLEADED with him..that we are sick. No give..we are to much for his 3 bedroom apartment.
:( The house is getting worse and worse...its enclosed more because of the cold weather..we had a constant leak of water coming from under the sink and its a constant battle of cleaning that up.who knows what molds are growing in that sink surround...its wooden..soaked..andits been months.Landlord who?what?yea..exactly.
The drain pipe for the washer is permenantly plugged deep within the house...so after paying70 or so $$ to a plumbing company to find THIS out..I am trully screwed..and left to do 30-40$worth of laundry a week..not to mention buying disposable diapers ....because I cant wash my diapers at the l.mat.

I have to get out of this house..like 3 months ago..we were asked to be out by middle of this month..and no dice. Anyone who thinks they have it bad...they just dont know the powerless feeling of not knowing where your kids and yourself may be living next. Not cool at all.